One week has passed , and I think my life is more messed up then ever . Choices . Mistakes . Regrets. Most of all choices that i can’t seem to comprehend anymore . I can’t decide what I want . Seriously. Fuck my life . My mind tell me to do this , however my heart tell me to do the exact opposite .
Advices given by my friends are no longer useful anymore . Because , I still can’t make up my mind . Argh.
I still hold onto us , our past . I still think things could be worked out. However , I have been taken away my a storm that pull me even further away. Which clouded my every thoughts . I never feel so lost then ever .
It is like heart vs mind . I can’t decide anymore! Seriously ! I have been thinking about it so much every day and night, I feel that I am going insane!
My friend told me to look towards the long run instead of the short run. That totally make sense , but will you give up everything for that? Will I ? I am seriously uncertain . Argh!!!
Seriously , why am I always rushing into relationships?! If I have not done so , this will never happen . And the day I got into one , I already knew we are heading for collateral damage .
On my birthday this year , I have wished for love . But oh my god , why did it became so overwhelming ? Of course , I am very blessed and thankful to always be rewarded with much love . And I am super appreciative , but when it comes to choices . I think I can’t decide . I really can’t . At the end of the day , one party have to be hurt . And I have to do it . And I hate that about myself , for hurting someone . Due to all my choices and actions . Haiz :( but I can’t simply please everybody ain’t I?
Wouldn’t it better to just stop hurting now instead of it dragging on? :( but I can’t seem to do it . Why? In a massive stage of dilemma.
How I wish I could actually just fly to AUS now and leave all my worries behind . Seriously. I just want to go now . I just want a quick exit out of this whirlwind of madness.
OMG SO PRETTY! I WANT THIS !!
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aww ~~ they look so cute together
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“Even as far back as when I started acting at 14, I know I’ve never considered failure.”
SHE IS DEAD GORGEOUS
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I guess there is no more thinking to be done . Actions speaks louder than words . :)
haiz.. confused right now. my life is just revolving back into a cycle again. fuck my life seriously. why must this have to keep happening in my life. why must i always be stuck with choices ? didn’t you been through this more than enough times to make you learn your mistakes ? FUCK. i hate making choices. fuck. seriously. ARGH !!
